Life Changes

So Bear will not be mine.

My fiance has broken up with me.

I have moved into my cousins home.

I am traumatized.

Bear has opened his eyes!

He's SUCH a doll, such a sweetheart. He loves me, opens his eyes to my voice, and falls asleep right away in my arms (unlike Sandi's or T's, which he doesn't recognise their smell). He lovvvves forehead kisses, and receives millions of them a visit. He's approx. 20 oz, 8" long, and one ear is down and one ear is up so far. He's not that furry, but I'm hoping he gains more fuzz as he gets older.

I love you Boo-Bear and only 5 more days until I get to see you!! <3

Bear 2 Weeks

BEAR! 1 Week

Winter Break

School's finally over. I made it through finals with 2 As and 2 Bs. I'm pretty happy with that.

I get so sad every time I look at google plus, I've actually deleted and blocked the site. hah. All my friends are having babies and I want a little one sooOOOO bad but I also want a career, so baby has to wait for mommy to finish school. GAH. So hard.

Little ideas about our wedding floats around the cold winter air, and I try to bring it up to jay as little as possible. He's so entranced in his new job he barely has time for anything any more, much less planning a wedding.

This year for some reason I went all out on Jay's Christmas presents. Which is kinda funny because it's also my most financially strapped christmas yet. (Thankfully Jay pays the bills.)

I'm officially signed up for Biology 175, Math 123, Chemistry 105, and Yoga. 2 easy classes and 2 hard classes. Should be a breeze! I just went and bought all of my school supplies for spring. It's going to be a good semester.

OH. And I officially stopped olanzapine today. We'll see how I detox - I'm definitely not looking forward to withdrawls, but my doctor said going cold turkey was the best way to get off of it. Which seemed outrageous to me, but hey, whatever he says.

School's Over!

All I have is a math final and a nutrition final and I'm DONE. Then I have three weeks off and then I get to start all over again with Chemistry, Human Biology, Math, and yoga. YAY.

My final grades were
Nutrition B
Sociology A
English A
Math B

Which I'm pretty stoked about - my midterm grades were all Bs.

Jay's birthday is coming up, and I bought him one of those copper chef pans you see on TV. He LOVES it, and I'm so grateful I found something he'll actually use. (He's an amazing chef btw.) I finished all my Christmas shopping, so now I'm just waiting for packages to come in the mail so that I can wrap them. I'm an awful wrapper. It's embarrassing.

Well, that's about all the news I have for December so far!

School's Going Good

I'm ready for this semester to be overwith so I can start on some of my lab classes. Chemistry is going to be hard, but it'll be okay. I made it through this semester (almost finished!) and I can make it through Chemistry.

Jay is loving his new job. He's liking that he's in a manager position as opposed to being a peon.

My meds are slowly being titrated, it will take a couple of months to get on the high dose i need to be on. It's a patience-taxing thing.

That's all the news I have so far! Sorry it seems like it's always the same thing...