Weight Tracking

Since my relapse, I've been put back on medication. I'm not thrilled, but it seems it's my only choice right now. Anti-psychotics make you gain weight my doctor said. But she didn't tell me I would gain TWENTY FIVE pounds. Yes, I've gained a whopping 25 pounds. Granted, I'm still only 145 lbs, which means my BMI is still within 'normal' range, but I don't feel good -- or comfortable.

SO.

I'm going to track what I eat/when I exercise on my instagram. I hope you all enjoy reading what I eat/what I do to work out and HOPEFULLY it will keep me excited about weight loss. Just remember to have patience with me because gaining weight on antipsychotics is easy, but losing is two times harder. But I know I can do this!

My weight: 145.
Goal weight: 120.

Before pictures:
And no, I'm not pregnant, that's just my poochy extra 25 pounds showing!

Update: July

Things have been going well around our neck of the woods!

I went back to my old job at Northern Idaho Advanced Care Hospital - sometimes the grass isn't always greener! I will be working weekend nights, but that's what I asked for; so I'm excited they could accommodate my needs. I'm also doing full time school (pre reqs for Dental Hygiene.)
Explanations of photos from top left to top right:

• I got more filled in on my tattoo, it's coming along nicely.
• Wyatt Cecil working on my tattoo.
• My 21st birthday outing!
• My first legal beer.
• Jay and I on my 21st birthday. He bought me my first legal drink.
• My first legal drink - hot sake!
• Got my horizontal license!
• Got my NIC school ID.
• Jay and I went floating.
• We go on a lot of walks as well.
• Which we have to stop and take selfies for, of course.
• I put my ring back on - we're trying to work things out.
• I got my hair balayaged.
• I got a new Kate Spade purse!
• YAY I can finally sit in the bars now!
• My mom and sister took me out to paint some pottery for my birthday. It was a lot of unexpected fun!

Update: June

As everyone is well aware, Jay and I cancelled our engagement.

I wasn't ready to settle down, and Jay needed some more time as well. Now that we've had a couple months to re think and re wind, we are pleased to announce that we could not live with out each other! The wedding is NOT back on. We will take that very slowly, if at all. But I do have my engagement ring back on.

I had gotten off my psych medications in order to try to get pregnant; but clearly, I can not function without the medications. I made some pretty out of character choices and hurt Jay. Thankfully I'm back on medications and doing seemingly even better than I was before.

This summer Jay and I will re learn each other and have fun, and then during the winter we'll decide whether marriage is something we want to pursue.

Meanwhile, I am enrolled in college full time; doing dental hygiene. I love it so far but it's a lot harder than I thought it should have been.

The pets are all fine, and getting fat as ever.

Hoping that things can only get better from here.

XOXO